| A Smart Kid |
[Feb. 23rd, 2009|02:45 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| |  mellow | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | Porcupine Tree | ] |
Stranded here on planet earth
It's not much but it could be worse
Everything's free here, there's no crowds
Winter lasted five long years
No sun will come again I fear
Chemical harvest was sown
And I will wait for you
Until the sky is blue
And I will wait for you
What else can I do?
A spaceship from another star
They ask me where all the people are
What can I tell them?
I tell them I'm the only one
There was a war but I must have won
Please take me with you. |
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| Truth |
[Jan. 28th, 2009|01:58 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| |  contemplative | ] |
Unfortunately people do have preformed views which are not based on their own experience, but simply what they've heard on the news media and they haven't really paused to sit down and analyze these views properly. It works instantly, it is truly a healing and positive plant for so many people. Again, it's a sign of the madness and the criminal violence of our society that it dictates whether or not we may experience the healing effects of this plant. It is an extraordinary thing to call the consumption of marijuana a crime. It is a victimless crime, if it's a crime at all.
An individual alone in his or her own house sampling a plant which has been with humanity since the beginning of time, for that to be called criminal is insane. We live in an insane society that believes it has a right to patrol even our consciousness, not only to tell us how to behave out there in public but to tell us actually what to think and what to experience. And that's the main objection to marijuana by our governments, is the effects that it has on consciousness. And they don't care that it is a fantastic pain reliever, which it is. They don't care about its wonderful medical properties. They just want to stop anybody experiencing these effects on consciousness. And no wonder our society is in such a mess where we imagine we live in a democracy and yet elect governments that actually have the nerve to tell us what we may and may not experience inside out own heads without doing any harm to others. There is so much hypocrisy, so much humbug in government positions on these matters. Governments know perfectly well that the rules that they have made, the misery they inflict on peoples lives don't get rid of these pros(?).
If we really want to solve the problem of drugs we need to open up the whole issue to broad public discussion and we have to accept and admit that certain plant products such as these ancient hallucinogens that shamans use are entirely beneficial in their interaction with the human race.
This is what governments are afraid of. They are afraid of a citizenry that is fully conscious. They actually want us to be unconscious. They want us to simply focus on this alert problem solving competitive mentality that makes us good consumers and good competitors in the business place. But they don't want us to explore the majestic and amazing depths of our consciousness because then we just might start asking questions that would be very uncomfortable for the powers that be.
-- Graham Hancock
This is what people need to realize, the only reason why marijuana is illegal is because of economics. It's because there's like a thousand different things marijuana would fix that pharmaceutical drugs right now are prescribed for. And it would cost the pharmaceutical companies billions and billions of dollars every year. If marijuana was made legal it would cost alcohol companies money. When you see those commercials, the talking dog, the pot commercial "I wish you wouldn't smoke weed" those are sponsored by a Partnership for a Drug Free America. Partnership for a Drug Free America is funded by alcohol companies, I mean it's hilarious. And alcohol is a drug! It's a drug that's sanctioned. And have you ever meet someone and they're like "I don't do drugs" meanwhile they're smoking and have a beer in their hand? What are you doing right now douche? Just because it has a label and a bar code and you can scan it doesn't make it a drug?
-- Joe Rogan |
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| Have you ever? |
[Jan. 8th, 2009|09:54 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | happy | ] |
Have you ever told your heart thank you for beating throughout all of these years? Have you ever praised your lungs for breathing? Have you ever noticed how your cells will repair a scratch on your hand, or force sickness from your body? Have you ever sat in wonder at how all of these processes seem to continue on throughout your life? Up until now, I was never consciously aware of all the magnificent and extraordinary systems my body uses to function. I would just go about my day, complaining about the weather or money without even realizing that it isn't even me that makes me alive. I do not control any of these workings, I don't even realize I am breathing for 95% of my day. Yet my body continues to live for me, my heart continues to beat, my blood flows through me.
Thank you body. Thank you for working so hard at keeping me alive. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 7th, 2009|07:06 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | thoughtful | ] |
Describe the color green. |
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| YOU |
[Sep. 8th, 2008|06:22 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | loved | ] |
I want to share all of my dreams and goals with you. You're so amazing, so a-amazing! |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 7th, 2008|07:55 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | contemplative | ] |
? |
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| Well then. |
[Aug. 27th, 2008|04:22 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | happy | ] |
So the past month has pretty much been the best month I've had in a long long time. I love my new place, my job, my girlie, and for the most part, everything seems to be going well. Pretty much a complete turn around from a few months ago when nearly every day was a grind.
Now if only I would start exercising and working out I would feel even better. Perhaps tomorrow? |
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| Finally... |
[Jul. 8th, 2008|08:14 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | excited | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | NIN - Discipline | ] |
...moving out next week. I'm excited! |
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| i wannaaaa |
[Jun. 29th, 2008|10:05 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| |  blank | ] |
leeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaavee |
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| NIN |
[May. 17th, 2008|05:27 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | okay | ] |
I have ONE ticket available for the NINE INCH NAILS concert in Auburn Hills, MI on August 23. If you are interested in joining, we will be leaving around 8am on the 23rd, getting a hotel, and coming back the 24th. Ticket is $70 + gas/hotel. Inquire via instant message. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 16th, 2008|03:22 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | hopeful | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | Nine Inch Nails - Getting Smaller | ] |
It isn't worth being pissed off or depressed all the time. It really isn't. |
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| 45h45 |
[May. 13th, 2008|03:16 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | higyugfo | ] |
| [ | Location |
| | h 53hh | ] |
| [ | Attitude |
| |  FUCK | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | wre4yh u42iu | ] |
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| Weird dreams... |
[May. 11th, 2008|07:25 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | good | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | Orgy | ] |
So I just had perhaps the weirdest dream I think I've ever had in my entire life. Well, who could ever really know that anyway? I mean I might have had some really odds ones back when I was a kid or something. Nonetheless, this was twisted..
So I lay down around 1:30pm to take a nap because I got up at 5am to fish. I feel as if I had been sleeping for a few hours, but it went by really fast. I open my eyes and stretch as I am waking up, and am frustrated that my nap went by so fast. I'm sleeping under my blankets with my pillow over my head as I do all the time and look at the top of the bed. I get startled because I see another set of hands. At first I thought maybe Kristen might have come over and laid down with me, but I was confused. I then reach up to grab them but as I grab them I feel as if someone is grabbing on my hands. This freaks me out and I try to let go but can't. That's when I realized I did in fact grab my own hands, but they weren't connected to me. I then jump up out of the blankets, and there I am standing on my bed, holding hands with myself.
As I am staring at myself, I got the most eerie feeling ever and screamed, "Holy shit! I HAVE to be dreaming!" Then I realized I never did wake up, and just had a false awakening. As I became lucid, the other me started to get upset and would not let go of my hands. He started to get physical and tried to kick me. I then jumped up all matrix style and kicked his head right off. I had just killed myself. There was no blood or anything, it just kind of went "BOOM!" I was still floating from the kick, and started to feel very paranoid. I then flew up into the corner of my room by my door because I felt as if someone else was going to rush in and attack me. I was just floating there for like 20 seconds until my door flung open, and there I was again! I looked at myself and felt threatened, so for the second time had to kill myself. As I landed and looked through my door I saw more of me running up the stairs to attack me. I had to get out of there. I crashed through my window to fly away, but started losing my ability to fly. It was like slow motion as I started to crash down to the ground.
The view I had when I was crashing was so, amazing. It took my breath away. I didn't even care that I was falling, everything just looked so beautiful. The colors on all the tress, the green grass, the blue sky, the cars parked in my driveway (some really crazy bright red/yellow cars!), everything looked incredible. I was upset that it was fading away.
I smashed into the ground and shot up out of bed breathing very heavy. I was still panicked from falling out of my window. I went to get up and noticed everything in my room was floating. "Woah, I'm still dreaming," I muttered. I tried to walk downstairs, but it was like I was on the moon. Every step was like a leap in slow motion. I was excited that I was lucid again in another dream, but as I started down to my living room I heard my sister say to my dad, "I think there is something wrong with Carl, we should check on him." I then got really paranoid that I wasn't really dreaming and was just crazy, so I didn't want to do anything out of the ordinary. I still continued into the living room, still on the moon, and no one said anything. It was odd because my dad, sister, mom, and grandpa were all in there and I was the only one moving in slow motion. I was still deciding whether or not I was dreaming and didn't want to ask anyone because if I wasn't dreaming that would probably be a pretty weird question to ask. I then started watching the movie they had on the television and became convinced there was absolutely no way I was dreaming because the movie seemed so real. I tried talking, but even that came out slow "Whhhaaaatttt arrreee yooouuu ddoooiiinnggg?" I said to my dad in the kitchen, but he didn't reply.
At this point I lost all lucidity and thought I was awake again, and started to make some food. I heated up a taco in the microwave, grabbed a half eaten symphony bar, and a can of Diet Dr. Pepper. My taco was done, and I started pouring some tomato sauce on it, which really confused me again because I never would do that. My dad started to laugh and boom, I was awake again. This time it was for real. I was pretty disappointed when I woke up, because damn that tomato taco looked tasty.
I need to lucid dream more often. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 11th, 2008|06:11 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| |  mischievous | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | Does It Offend You, Yeah? - We Are Rockstars | ] |
DONDE ESTA KRISTEN FREINDAK? NECESITO VER SU! |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 24th, 2008|02:11 am] |
it comes and it goes
so it seems
the more you expose
the harder it is to believe |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 10th, 2008|02:15 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| |  dead | ] |
LOSE ME
HATE ME
SMASH ME
ERASE ME
KILL ME
KILL ME
KILL ME
KILL ME
KILL ME
KILL ME
KILL ME
KILL ME
KILL ME
KILL ME
KILL ME
KILL ME |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 10th, 2008|01:57 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | dead | ] |
what have i become
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away, in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 5th, 2008|01:16 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | frustrated | ] |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 31st, 2008|06:22 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | NIN | ] |
Like the cancer in your system
I've got a little surprise for you |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 19th, 2008|03:17 am] |
all the jagged edges disappear
colors all look brighter when you're near
the stars are all the fire in the sky
sometimes i get so lonely i could ... |
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| and all we ever were, just zeros and ones |
[Mar. 18th, 2008|04:57 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | Nine Inch Nails - Zero Sum | ] |
and you never get away
and you never get to take the easy way
and all of this
is a consequence
brought on by
our own hand
if you believe in that sort of thing
and did you ever really find
when you closed your eyes
any place
that was still
and at peace
and i guess i just wanted to tell you
as the lights start to fade
that you're the reason
that i am not afraid
and i guess i just wanted to mention
as the heavens will fall
we will be together soon if we
will be anything at all |
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| .. |
[Mar. 17th, 2008|01:12 am] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | lonely | ] |
Feel so lonely, wish you were here. |
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| Just in case anyone was curious... |
[Mar. 13th, 2008|03:38 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | mellow | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | Nine Inch Nails - Ghosts | ] |
- Sour, said the fox about rowan berries, not being able to reach them. |
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| Some good proverbs/passages |
[Mar. 12th, 2008|04:11 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| |  curious | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | Nine Inch Nails - Ghosts | ] |
- As a dog returns to his own vomit, so a fool repeats his folly.
- People who live in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones.
- Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
- A bad workman always blames his tools.
- Common sense is not common.
- Dreams are not the ones which come when you sleep, but they are the ones which will not let you sleep.
- Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day; teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.
- Sell a man a fish, he eats for a day, teach a man how to fish, you ruin a wonderful business opportunity.
- If something can go wrong, it will.
- In order to get where you want to go, you first have to leave where you are.
- In the end, a man's motives are second to his accomplishments.
- It's easier to ask forgiveness than permission.
- If you fall off a cliff, you might as well try to fly. After all, you got nothing to lose.
- You never miss your water....until your well runs dry.
- Whatever joy you seek, it can be achieved by yourself; whatever misery you seek, it can be found by yourself.
- Happamia, sanoi kettu pihlajanmarjoista kun ei niihin yltänyt. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 10th, 2008|09:46 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | NIN | ] |
I believe I can see the future
Because I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
Then again, that might have been a dream
I think I used to have a voice
Now I never make a sound
I just do what I've been told
I really don't want them to come around
Oh, no.
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same
I can feel their eyes are watching
In case I lose myself again
Sometimes I think I'm happy here
Sometimes, yeah, I still pretend
I can't remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end.
Every day is exactly the same |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 9th, 2008|02:28 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | calm | ] |
i don't know what to say
to prepare you for this transition
it is going to seem surreal
it might even become an obsession
your mind will began to race
and will start to blur your vision
the world will make more sense
experiencing pure cognition
how you couldn't see before
is a question without omission
all your fears are gone
and are suddenly full of ambition
you decide to change your life
and rid of useless tradition
i challenge you to change
an important proposition
transition
as the time goes by
you fall deeper into your transition
you feel as if you could fly
you're not bounded by conditions
colors are so bright
enjoyment beyond fruition
you finally see the light
at the start of your transition
all your thoughts combine
into a special rendition
when the stars begin to align
you do not have to ask for permission
this is your transition |
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| I'm home now... |
[Mar. 9th, 2008|02:05 pm] |
| [ | Attitude |
| | good | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | Mozart | ] |
...and it's cold here. Summer please? |
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